the ugly truth

People are sometimes amused, sometimes impressed, often rolling their eyes behind my back (don't think I can't SEE you) at the lengths I go to to get and stay organized. People that don't know me very well think I am really on the ball. People that do know me well wonder why I'm not more on the ball considering how much effort I put into getting organized. Several family members think I should be in therapy for Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. The truth is this...compensation. I am totally air-headed, and I'm not saying this as an exaggeration. I have swiss-cheese brain. If I don't write it down, it is gone forever, and if I do write it down, it may still be gone forever because I will probably lose the 3 month old walmart receipt I pulled out of my purse to scribble it on. Homeschooling well requires a good amount of planning and organization, so I overkill. I plan and schedule and make lists and it's all in excess, but it helps me cope enough that the overplanning combined with my leaky brain usually reach a fairly happy medium. I do realize that those who know the symptoms are reading this and going, "well, she has ADD". Yeah, I know. I'm pretty sure I do too. I'm not going to go on medication for it, not when I'm trying to conceive especially. I've managed this long, I'll keep muddling through with my planners and my lists and my constantly tweaked schedules. In the meantime, you'll appreciate the perspective when you read posts about any obsessive school year planning. If you are not such a planner, remember that you may not need to be...your brain may hold water better than mine! In the meantime, I leave you with this appropriately inappropriate quote of the day...

"I know there's deep inside (me) some lazy hippie who'd be perfectly happy to lay on the couch, smoke weed and watch `The Simpsons' all day. I'm really afraid of that guy. I don't like him." _ Celebrity chef Anthony Bourdain.